{"id":81539,"date":"2026-07-16T16:57:09","date_gmt":"2026-07-16T12:57:09","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/odlar.media\/?p=81539"},"modified":"2026-07-16T16:57:33","modified_gmt":"2026-07-16T12:57:33","slug":"maside-aydogan-dincer","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/odlar.media\/?p=81539","title":{"rendered":"Ma\u015fide Aydo\u011fan Din\u00e7er"},"content":{"rendered":"

Ma\u015fide Aydo\u011fan Din\u00e7er<\/strong><\/span><\/p>\n

1982 y\u0131l\u0131nda Kahramanmara\u015f’ta do\u011fdu. \u0130lk\u00f6\u011fretim, orta\u00f6\u011fretim ve lise e\u011fitimini Kahramanmara\u015f’ta tamamlad\u0131. Uzun y\u0131llard\u0131r ilgi duydu\u011fu yazarl\u0131k alan\u0131nda e\u011fitim alarak edebiyat \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmalar\u0131n\u0131 s\u00fcrd\u00fcrd\u00fc.
\nDeneme ve \u00f6yk\u00fcleri ulusal ve yerel dergi ve gazetelerin yan\u0131 sar\u0131 Yaz\u0131lar\u0131; Vesselam Dergisi, D\u00fc\u015feyaz Dergisi, Kalemden Kelama, Salk\u0131m S\u00f6\u011f\u00fct, Edebiyat\u0131n Ba\u015fkenti, Birnokta Dergisi, K\u0131rkambar Dergisi, Usare Dergisi, Yitik S\u00f6z, Garbiyeli, Yarpuz Edebiyat, Man\u015fet Gazetesi ve And\u0131r\u0131n Postas\u0131’nda yay\u0131nland\u0131<\/p>\n

2025 Y\u0131l\u0131nda Bizim Evin Halleri deneme kitab\u0131 yay\u0131nland\u0131.<\/p>\n

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Babam\u0131n Ayak Sesleri<\/strong><\/p>\n

Ma\u015fide Aydo\u011fan Din\u00e7er<\/strong><\/p>\n

Ali Emmi, balkondan a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131nda bah\u00e7e kap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcnde bekleyen gen\u00e7 kad\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6nce tan\u0131yamad\u0131. Yaz g\u00fcne\u015fi g\u00f6zlerini al\u0131yordu. Elini aln\u0131na siper etti. Sonra y\u0131llard\u0131r g\u00f6rmedi\u011fi bir dostun y\u00fcz\u00fc d\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc akl\u0131na.
\n“Mustafa’n\u0131n k\u0131z\u0131…”
\nBu iki kelimeyle birlikte ya\u015fl\u0131 dizlerindeki a\u011fr\u0131 sanki birka\u00e7 basamak geride kald\u0131. Merdivenleri a\u011f\u0131r a\u011f\u0131r de\u011fil, \u00f6zlemin acelecili\u011fiyle indi. Kap\u0131y\u0131 a\u00e7t\u0131\u011f\u0131nda G\u00fclce ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 e\u011fip elini \u00f6pt\u00fc. Ali Emmi onun sa\u00e7lar\u0131na dokundu. Parmaklar\u0131n\u0131n ucunda eski g\u00fcnlerden kalm\u0131\u015f bir s\u0131cakl\u0131k vard\u0131.
\n“Gel yavrum,” dedi. “Ev de seni beklemi\u015f gibi.”
\nBalkon eskisi gibiydi. Tahta sedir y\u0131llar\u0131n y\u00fck\u00fcn\u00fc sessizce ta\u015f\u0131maya devam ediyordu. Asmalar yaz\u0131n bereketini dallar\u0131nda sall\u0131yor, olgun \u00fcz\u00fcmler r\u00fczg\u00e2r estik\u00e7e birbirine de\u011fip ince bir ses \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131yordu. Bah\u00e7enin bir k\u00f6\u015fesinde k\u0131zarm\u0131\u015f domateslerin kokusu topra\u011fa kar\u0131\u015f\u0131yordu. Baz\u0131 kokular insana \u00e7ocuklu\u011funu de\u011fil, hi\u00e7 ya\u015fayamad\u0131\u011f\u0131 g\u00fcnleri hat\u0131rlat\u0131rd\u0131.
\nAli Emmi biraz sonra elinde bak\u0131r bir tepsiyle \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131. \u0130nce belli bardaklarda demli \u00e7ay, sacdan yeni indirilmi\u015f yufka, tuzlu k\u00f6y peyniri, dal\u0131ndan kopar\u0131lm\u0131\u015f domates ve ye\u015fil biber…
\nG\u00fclce yufkadan k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir par\u00e7a kopar\u0131p peynire sard\u0131. A\u011fz\u0131na g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc ilk lokmada g\u00f6zleri doldu. Sanki \u00e7ocuklu\u011fundan eksik b\u0131rak\u0131lm\u0131\u015f bir sofraya y\u0131llar sonra oturmu\u015ftu.
\nBaz\u0131 tatlar insan\u0131n karn\u0131n\u0131 de\u011fil, yar\u0131m kalm\u0131\u015f \u00e7ocuklu\u011funu doyuruyordu.
\nDerin bir nefes ald\u0131.
\n\u0130\u00e7ine \u00e7ekti\u011fi yaln\u0131zca bah\u00e7enin kokusu de\u011fildi. Babas\u0131n\u0131n y\u0131llarca i\u00e7inde ta\u015f\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131 memleket hasretiydi sanki.
\n“Anlat bana Ali Emmi,” dedi usulca. “Babam\u0131 anlat.”
\nYa\u015fl\u0131 adam g\u00f6zlerini uzaklara \u00e7evirdi. \u0130nsan bazen konu\u015fmaya ba\u015flamadan \u00f6nce y\u0131llarca susmu\u015f gibi olurdu.
\n“Baban…” dedi. “Benim dostum de\u011fil, karde\u015fimdi.”
\nBir sessizlik ge\u00e7ti aralar\u0131ndan.
\n“Hayat ona erken y\u00fck oldu. Gen\u00e7 ya\u015f\u0131nda e\u015fini topra\u011fa verdi. \u00c7ocuklar\u0131n\u0131 tek ba\u015f\u0131na b\u00fcy\u00fctt\u00fc. Sonra annenle evlendi. Bu k\u00f6y herkese yuva olmad\u0131 yavrum. Kiminin ekme\u011fiydi, kiminin gurbeti.”
\nG\u00fclce ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 e\u011fdi.
\nAli Emmi anlat\u0131rken onun g\u00f6zleri bah\u00e7edeki dut a\u011fac\u0131na tak\u0131ld\u0131. Babas\u0131 da konu\u015furken b\u00f6yle uzaklara dalar m\u0131yd\u0131? C\u00fcmlelerinin aras\u0131na sessizlikler koyar m\u0131yd\u0131? Hi\u00e7 bilmiyordu. Bir insan\u0131n sesini unutmak kadar a\u011f\u0131r bir \u015fey varsa, hi\u00e7 duyamad\u0131\u011f\u0131 h\u00e2lini merak etmekti.
\n“Baban gitmek istemezdi asl\u0131nda,” dedi Ali Emmi. “Ama bazen insan sevdi\u011fi insan\u0131n pe\u015finden memleketini de b\u0131rak\u0131yor.”
\nBu c\u00fcmle G\u00fclce’nin i\u00e7ine a\u011f\u0131r a\u011f\u0131r oturdu.
\n\u00c7ocuklu\u011fu boyunca annesinin \u015fehirde a\u00e7t\u0131\u011f\u0131 perdelerin arkas\u0131nda b\u00fcy\u00fcm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc. K\u00f6yden s\u00f6z edilmezdi evlerinde. Eski foto\u011fraflar \u00e7ekmecelerin dibinde dururdu. Babas\u0131 bazen ak\u015famlar\u0131 pencerenin \u00f6n\u00fcnde uzun uzun susard\u0131. O suskunlu\u011fun bir k\u00f6y kadar b\u00fcy\u00fck oldu\u011funu \u015fimdi anl\u0131yordu.
\nAnnesine y\u0131llarca k\u0131rg\u0131n kalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.
\nBelki annesi de yabanc\u0131 oldu\u011fu bir hayata gelmi\u015fti. Belki onun da ta\u015f\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcnmeyen yaralar\u0131 vard\u0131. Ama \u00e7ocukluk, b\u00fcy\u00fcklerin ac\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131 anlamay\u0131 hep ge\u00e7 \u00f6\u011freniyordu.
\nAli Emmi yeniden konu\u015ftu.
\n“\u015eehirde ekme\u011fini ta\u015ftan \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131 baban. Kimseye e\u011filmedi. Ama ne zaman k\u00f6y\u00fcn ad\u0131 ge\u00e7se g\u00f6zlerinin i\u00e7i ba\u015fka g\u00fclerdi.”
\nG\u00fclce’nin bo\u011faz\u0131 d\u00fc\u011f\u00fcmlendi.
\nBabas\u0131 hayattayken neden hi\u00e7 sormam\u0131\u015ft\u0131 bunlar\u0131?
\n\u0130nsan, sevdiklerinin \u00e7ocuklu\u011funu hep ge\u00e7 \u00f6\u011freniyordu.
\nAya\u011fa kalkt\u0131. Bah\u00e7eye indi. Parmaklar\u0131n\u0131 topra\u011f\u0131n \u00fczerine b\u0131rakt\u0131. Toprak s\u0131cakt\u0131. Belki y\u0131llar \u00f6nce babas\u0131n\u0131n ayaklar\u0131 da ayn\u0131 s\u0131cakl\u0131\u011fa basm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.
\n\u00c7ocuklu\u011fundan beri eksik olan \u015feyin bir ev de\u011fil, bir iz oldu\u011funu hissetti.
\n“Ali Emmi…”
\n“Efendim yavrum?”
\n“Ben buraya yabanc\u0131 de\u011filim.”
\nYa\u015fl\u0131 adam g\u00fcl\u00fcmsedi.
\n“Biliyorum.”
\n“Babam\u0131n kokusu var burada.”
\nAli Emmi cevap vermedi.
\n\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc baz\u0131 c\u00fcmlelere s\u00f6z yeti\u015fmezdi.
\nG\u00fcne\u015f yava\u015f yava\u015f bah\u00e7enin \u00f6b\u00fcr taraf\u0131na \u00e7ekilirken g\u00f6lgeler uzad\u0131. \u00dcz\u00fcmler sessizce salland\u0131. Bir ser\u00e7e gelip sedirin kenar\u0131na kondu. Hayat, y\u0131llard\u0131r b\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131 yerden devam ediyordu.
\nGiderken Ali Emmi avucunun i\u00e7ine k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir \u00fcz\u00fcm salk\u0131m\u0131 b\u0131rakt\u0131.
\n“Seneye yine gel.”
\nG\u00fclce \u00fcz\u00fcm\u00fc avucunda s\u0131kt\u0131.
\nAli Emmi ard\u0131ndan uzun uzun bakt\u0131. Sanki giden G\u00fclce de\u011fil de, y\u0131llar \u00f6nce u\u011furlad\u0131\u011f\u0131 dostuydu.
\n\u0130\u00e7ini \u00e7ekti.
\n“\u0130nsan ya\u015f ald\u0131k\u00e7a \u00f6z\u00fc de kalm\u0131yor yavrum,” dedi usulca. “Geriye bir avu\u00e7 hat\u0131ra, birka\u00e7 isim, biraz da \u00f6zlem kal\u0131yor.”
\nG\u00fclce d\u00f6n\u00fcp ona bakt\u0131.
\n“Gelirim Ali Emmi,” dedi. “Babam\u0131n gelemedi\u011fi zamanlar\u0131n yerine de gelirim…”<\/p>\n

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